to show choir or not to show choir?

...that is the question.

I am going to take a brief break from my Hamlet studies to write this post... more for the purpose of processing than anything else.

I found out the other day that show choir auditions are this coming week... and I am split. I have been planning on trying to do show choir this year, since it is supposed to be a blast. But I don't know if it will work.

These are the problems:
I have been very, very tired, and not feeling fantastic lately. I have also been quite stressed (which isn't helping the tiredness...), because I'm having difficulty keeping up in school with absences and my general sub-par energy level.

These are the good things:
Doing show choir would be something fun and social, and I have not been the most social lately. In school I talk with my friends a lot and such, but out of school I tend to focus on my schoolwork/go to bed early/etc. A few good friends of mine are involved, and I would get a chance to be with them lots! Also, because it is open to all grades, I could befriend some other people with whom I might take classes next year during my extra semester. It would exercise my musical side, and get me involved in something new! Things wouldn't be so dull all the time, and I would actually have a LIFE.

So...

It would be great for me socially and mentally, but I'm not sure how it is going to be for me academically and health-wise. It could make things worse; I could become more fatigued and have even more trouble with school, which would not be good. But on the other hand, having something enjoyable and positive in my routine could lift my energy a bit - it would certainly lift my spirits.

It's only two days a week... so... it wouldn't be a huge commitment....

Oh - the other thing - I might not be eligible since I am only taking 1.5 credits in school. My 504 supports a light academic load and extra-curriculars for my physical and emotional health, but even so it might not work out. We'll see.

My plan is to think about it more this weekend, go to the pre-auditions on Monday, and sleep on it that night. I would love, love, LOVE to do it... but I need to meditate on it some more.

And find out if I am eligible.


We'll see what happens.